I Am Not Yours

   

I AM NOT YOURS!

I want to scream it from the roof tops and engrave it on your forehead so you'll leave me alone, but that deep dark part inside of me can't bring myself to do it because part of me is still yours.

Every night I fall asleep upset, in pain, confused.

I LOVE YOU.

But you don't love me. 

                                                   

Love isn't always just saying it.
 Love is also an action

We play this game of "one minutes" but the end is always the same-

You say you love me, then cheat on me anyways.

I want to be happy, bring my head above the water once more, but then I see something, hear or read something and I drown once more. 

                                                                              

I try to forget you but I find that I can't but it's not from a lack of trying.

Just when I think I've made it...I slip

I've started rebuilding...

I'm learning to slowly love again...

    But then he kissed me and all I saw was
                                                                       you

                                    

                        And again I am blue...

So, if you love me at all, then help me past this...

Help me to finally get over you.

                                   

©Victoria Shea, 12 December 2012

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For You

For You

There is so much I want to tell you, 
but the words just don't seem to be there.

I lay awake night and day, my breathing so shallow, my heart racing along

If only you were a mind reader, I wouldn't have to speak
Wouldn't have to worry about making a fool out of myself in front of you

I know what I want to say...but when I try, I am speechless

For you are the one to bring love back into my cold and empty heart

The one that scooped me into your arms and held me so I wouldn't get hurt

The one that is right beside me when the going get's rough

The one who was sent to bring me home

My knight in shinning armor

The one who still sweeps me away

The one who makes my life complete

The one who I've completely fallen in love with

For you are the one that I live for

Each and every day

The one that knows how to make me smile and laugh

When I'm down for the count

My best friend, my soul mate

The one to whom I'm giving my heart to

The one who, together, we will hold the world in our palms

This simple poem expresses it all

I guess I was able to tell you,

Just in written words, that's all

So this is for you my love

And all the time in the world that is ours

Until we are...reborn

In Love...

Once More

©Victoria Shea, June 30, 2010

Photo courtesy of bonzasheila.com